I want to enjoy the extraordinary, but I\'m being forced down and tied up with eyes like a dead fish. . . I wonder what my husband will do when I can\'t do anything. . . I wonder what my husband will do as I ling a sense of defeat. . . Even though I can\'t see anything, I can probably even feel the sound of the toys being prepared. I want to experience the feeling of having my five senses sharpened. .